Baby steps

74,8 kg

Made it through the weekend. Not very gracefully, though, I must admit. 

I went to the gym for an hour and a half on Friday and did a very good lower body workout. Later that night watched a movie called “Silver Linings Playbook” and ate popcorn. Lots of it. But absolutely NO CANDY OR CHOCOLATE.  No sugar if you don’t count the sugar in strawberries I had earlier. So Friday was good. I made it.

On Saturday and Sunday we had friends over for dinner. I love to cook and bake. You do the math.

Since I do get regular exercise I’m not going to cut down on regular food. A glass of red wine with dinner isn’t going to kill me either. You think I could resist the warm blueberry pie with ice cream for dessert? Of course not. (Nor could I say no to a tofu ice cream at a shopping mall earlier that day.)

On Sunday I caught myself reaching for a bowl full of chocolate while cooking dinner. I was able to stop myself then. Had my usual glass of red with dinner. The lovely meringue blueberry cake I had baked for dessert was to die for. I had two large pieces.  

So why do I bake if I can’t resist eating what I bake? I have a reputation to stand up to. I love to bake and people love what I bake. What if I stopped baking? Would I be less good of a hostess? Why would I have to stop something I love?  I just need to learn portion control. Or maybe look for alternatives that are loaded with something else besides sugar and butter.

Today’s a new day and my next trial wont’ be until Saturday when I help my friend cater her son’s confirmation party. Maybe, just maybe I’ll be able to psyche myself to stick to the healthier choices. There’ll be salad and I’ll be too busy to eat much anyway, I hope.

Whatever it’s worth, my weight came down a bit since Friday.